There have been many times in my life when I prayed about what was going on in favour of my own convenience and I didn’t talk to Him about what He thought first. On occasion, I have actually asked the Lord to find me a carpark, please? Is my face red (?)  😡 At other times, I just wanted some bad thing that was happening to go away far more than I cared about what His thoughts on the matter were. Yikes. 😳 

The bible was not given to us simply to prove our own personal denominational POV or make our lives more comfy-cosy. It was given to us for instruction, correction, and reproof. (2 Timothy 3:16-17.) This book is supposed to train us up in the way we should go, so when we are old we won’t depart from it. So it is not just a book of bonus vouchers or add-on free benefits. We were saved and now we will live with Him forever …that is all the benefit we need. And all that is His GRACE – freely given.

The sad thing is, there is a whole generation of older folks out there that have been taught that this, the benefit bit, is exactly how they are supposed to appreciate and use His book. For us that comes under the heading of “…forget not all His benefits.” There is way more in His book than the God-given astronomically expensive benefits. What the Father gave us for free cost Him His Son’s life, and I think we all need more reverence. I exhort you to ask Him for it. Personally, I think the bible is a book about relationships – Him and us, and us and others.

Reverence is kind of an out-of-date word in our society. However, reverence is not simply tacking a ‘please and thank you’ onto the end of our prayers. Reverence is about the way we regard Him and obey Him. True reverence is a mirror into our own hearts and souls. When I looked into His mirror lately, I was shocked  … ‘how on earth did I end up thinking like that again?’ I realised I had started feeling like a terrible failure because I’ve been praying about some stuff for years and maybe that meant that my faith was not good, or I wasn’t praying right, or I had some sin I hadn’t confessed yet. I was looking for results, and not looking at the Saviour.

I realised by thinking like that I was making our God too small. The God of the bible is incredible! The thing I forgot is that I have a precious Father Who is not only bigger in His heart than my repetitive mistakes, He is also more than capable of correcting me. That means I do not have to be in charge all by myself anymore. My part in what He did for me is to love Him and others, AND obey Him, and live in forgiveness and reconciliation – not just in word, but in deed.

Today, I would like to share a personal testimony about the fact that God actually does know everything. I was a Catholic when I was much younger and Catholics use special beads to help them pray. Whatever! I threw all of mine away under the Lord’s guidance when I was first born again. I am not implying anything about anyone who uses  beads like this, I am simply repeating what happened to ME. One day when I was in my late 20’s I was reading the bible, and talking to the Lord about stuff in my life and I asked Him if there was anything He didn’t like that I was doing, or books or anything else that He didn’t want me to have.

His answer was immediate and very clear. “You still have some of those beads in one of your handbags and I asked you to get rid of them.” Well! … I got on my little high-horse and explained that: ‘I did not! I had thrown all of mine away! He insisted. I argued. In the end I took each handbag I had, and opened it up and lifted it up towards heaven … so He could see that there was nothing of the sort in any of MY bags! But He kept quietly insisting… 

As I continued to try to prove the Lord wrong, (bad move BTW! – ya think?), I felt something lumpy in one of my soft vinyl bags. Between the lining and the outside vinyl of this bag was a rosary. I had no idea how it got there, you couldn’t see it, at all, it was hidden under the lining. I didn’t even remember having it. I repented instantly and threw it in the bin. Then, the Lord said this to me: “If you WILL hear Me for correction – you will hear Me for direction.”  I learnt that day that it is essential that we learn to let the Holy Spirit counsel us with His eye upon us (Psalm 32:8) – Because we can often think we are right when we are actually extremely wrong! Maybe we’d better pay attention and learn how to listen. The Lord did not tell me about those beads until I initiated that conversation. It is up to US to keep our hearts right and it is NOT an automatic thing. We need be intentional about it.

Here’s a little snippet from the bible that is really interesting – it shows what real obedience looks like. Peter and his mates had been fishing all night when Jesus called out to them: “Have you caught any fish boys?”  They said ‘no.’ (At this point I would like to point out that these men were very experienced generational fishermen who earned their living fishing!) “Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because You say so, I will let down the nets.” Luke 5:5. It is time that we stopped explaining away what He asks us to do and simply obey Him in spite of our own personal feelings and discomfort. “Obedience is better than sacrifice.” 

ps Read the story of Abraham and Isaac and their God-initiated trip up a mountain. 👋🏻